Ever the adaptable Gemini I've looked for ways to adapt, and cope with my injury. One of the best things I've done was to order decorative art for my cast, from a company called "Casttoo" . Their motto of "Happy Healing" has been a truth for me. Since putting my Casttoo on my cast, I've definitely felt better about my injury:
Of course too, I've earned some serious props (thumbs up) from my Shao-lin Buddies!
But what about the spiritual lessons? Was the Universe telling me to slow down? Did I need to learn not to take my fingers for granted? Or perhaps I needed the Kung Fu lesson of "don't block a kick with your hand!".
Slow down, ok. I can hear that message. But the slowing down has happened in different ways; how I eat, open doors, drive. I've found deeper compassion for people who are permanently disabled and have lost the use of one or more of their limbs. I am so, so grateful to have two hands. I'm grateful I only need to be in my cast for three weeks, which is very short compared to others who have been casted.
But the thing I miss most is "writing". I have a deep love and passion for pen and paper, and the loss of being able to write has been significant. My mind is swirling with thoughts I would like to write in my journal. On the upside I've been having deeper dreams. Somehow I feel the deeper dreams are connected to the lack of being able to write.
And then there was the experience of feeling panic and anxiety, the first few days after I was casted. What a trip that was once the cast was set! Once the cast was set it hit me hard that I couldn't get my hand out of it, without a saw to cut through the cast. Thankfully those moments were short-lived and now I've gotten kinda used to being in the cast.
I've also learned I'm pretty good with my left hand, except for writing of course. I got a thumbs up at a Vietnamese restaurant for being use chop sticks with my left hand.
Any time I have an illness or injury I look for the spiritual aspects in the event. One of the hardest things to do was to return to Kung Fu. I am so glad I went back. Even though I won't be sparring for a while, it was an invaluable lesson to face the fear.
My injury is also teaching me how to sit with my thoughts since I can't write. Sure I'm typing, but I can only do that for so long before it becomes uncomfortable. And typing definitely isn't the same as writing.
However each day I'm grateful for feeling good and moving closer and closer to cast removal day!
Blessed Be and the Brightest of Blessings to You!
Priestess Najah
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